• Jen McNair Wilson

There are many beautiful terms in Sanskrit and one of them is this:


It means ‘crimes against wisdom’ and refers to any actions, lifestyle choices, habits etc. that take us away from a state of equilibrium/harmony and bring us into one of imbalance/dis-ease.

When I first heard that there was such a thing, that there was a term for ‘crimes against wisdom’ it did something wonderful to my heart. Prajnaparadha. It gave me a different kind of accountability for my actions and invoked a positive and ongoing introspection.

This says so much

Calling ‘Prajnaparadha’ on myself is almost like a game, one where I am open and willing to see and to make changes. It is a veil lifter! I think it works on an individual level, looking at ourselves, the choices we make for our little bodies and minds and it works too, collectively, looking at all of us and how we are with this Earth, our greater body in a sense.

So I recommend an exploration of this in your own life. Calling ‘Prajnaparadha’ on yourself, with lightness.

We don’t always do what we know is right, because sometimes wisdom gets in the way of instant gratification, convenience and our selfishness. We let the harmful go unchecked, don’t we? Because in so doing we get a little something we want... short term.

I was going to write some of the things that I’ve seen in me and us but I will leave you to see for yourself and I welcome any sharing and feedback.

One thing I will say is that there are unwise things we thoughtlessly do that we can stop with a bit of will power, especially if we can see life is better without them in the long term, BUT there are some things that are a little different in nature. There are things we do that although unwise or harmful, are engrained habits with claws that at some time probably saved us from suffering and these are not easy to drop. If you find yourself calling Prajnaparadha on something that you’re helpless over, then I suggest compassion and understanding and definitely applying some COAL: Curiosity, Openness, Acceptance and Love. ie: Try to see what that prajnaparadha is giving you, is it soothing? Is it numbing? What does it or did it originally save you from feeling? Hold your small self and explore, understand and be kind and compassionate and allow.

Thank you.

  • Jen McNair Wilson

"I hold you here, root and all, in my hand,

Little flower—but if I could understand

What you are, root and all, and all in all,

I should know what God and man is."


Who am I?

Is a flower just a flower? Or is it rainbows and sunshine, and earth and water, the wind, the air, the infinite void,

the whole universe pretending to be a flower?

  • Jen McNair Wilson

Falling from Grace? No. It’s just another face of Grace. And how do you like your cup of Karma?

We have runs of abundance, where everything flows sweetly and we feel the Universe winks at us through the sweet synchronicity sprinkled on our days, and we probably think to ourselves something along the lines of ‘ah YES! I’m in the flow of Grace’. And when it changes, because this life is wont to change, and we find ourselves in the middle of a storm of some nature, we can experience that 'what did I do wrong?' ‘why hast Thou forsaken me’ness, sensing ‘separation from Grace’. A horrible feeling and one that is never, in my opinion, true. Not true because it is all Grace.

Sure, sometimes there’s something in a storm that needs to be seen. Perhaps something needs to be let go of, or a shift needs to happen and it's good to be willing and curious to see if that's so. But sometimes it’s just how it is and not necessarily how we want it to be or think it should be.

We get attached to things being a certain way, attached to people, states of being, our bodies working efficiently, all this impermanent stuff, and we identify strongly with an impermanent little self. So a shake up in life, though often painful can serve as a reminder to remember, or seek, that which is beyond all this coming and going.

Does life owe us anything? I think ‘Life’ itself IS the gift.

This here, now, is what we have. We can call it our cup of Karma. And so my friend, how will you drink yours today? With curiosity, love, gratitude or even quiet and simple acceptance - thereby adding sweetness to it?

Or with anger, resentment or fear, screwing up your sweet little face as if taking bitter medicine? Understanding can change our attitude and our experience. That’s not to say there’ll be no pain but there is Grace in its face.

Sunshine and rain

Inhale and exhale,

Day and night,

Summer and Winter,

Happy and sad,

Pleasure and pain.

It all belongs. All of it.

My friend Sam uses the phrase ‘This too’ as a little reminder when something isn’t the way he’d like it to be.

This too belongs.

This too is Grace.

(Ps. Sometimes I screw up my face and drink my cup of Karma with a teaspoon of tears or a splash of aversion.. it’s ok cause if your heart is open to seeing beyond the transient, even a little bit, something or someone will remind you and you’ll say ‘this too’ and the sun will shine for you again)

This too